Today I had one of those moments where I just wept. I’ve discovered that this isn’t unusual in motherhood – sometimes for sweet reasons, sometimes from overwhelmed feelings, sometimes from just sheer exhaustion. Today it was oh so sweet.
It was naptime for Sam, and I’ve been trying to teach him to fall asleep on his own. He’s been doing pretty well at it for night-time, but he’s still pretty dependant on me rocking him to sleep for naps. I did the usual routine in getting things ready for naptime, then wrapped him in his soft blanket, gave him his pacifier, and sat down in the rocking chair with him cuddled in my arms. He’s gotten to the point where he likes to squirm and crane his neck to look all around the room while I try to stay patient and get him to the sleepy stage. But. This time he was tired enough that he just snuggled up close to me and just stared up at me with his clear blue eyes.
We had the sweetest moments together, just staring at each other, snuggling, and silently communicating ‘I love you’. It was so sweet that I just cried and thanked God for him. And I didn’t want to put him down. So just for today, I think I’ll rock him and hold him while he sleeps. Thank you, Lord.
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that is so sweet:) i almost cried just reading it!!!
ReplyDeleteStephanie, I love and miss you all so much!! Sam is so lucky to have you as a mom!
ReplyDeleteAlthough it may seem strange, I still have moments similar to that at even 4yo. Madelyn (the anti-snuggler that she is) snuggled in my arms just last week and we giggled for a few minutes and then she fell asleep. It was such a sweet and natural thing. I also stopped and took it in, prayed over her, thanked God for her, and then promptly fell asleep too! I try to write these moments indelibly in my mind because it is remembering moments like this that help me through those hard-to-deal-with behaviors too!
Don't you love motherhood? There's nothing like it.
ReplyDeleteAw, thank you SO much for sharing that! I got goosebumps :)
ReplyDeleteAWW! There will be many more of those "sweet moments" just cherish them, cause they grow up so fast..thanks for sharing Steph..I think you are doing a terrific job with Sam, even with the colic stage. Hang in there girl!
ReplyDeleteOk, so maybe it's the pregnancy hormones, but I started bawling at the end of this blog! That's so sweet, Steph... thank you Lord, for my sweet nephew AND my wonderful sister!
ReplyDeleteThere are so many times where I don't put Owen down for his nap and just hold him! It's the sweetest thing in the world! Hopefully when they are older they still let us hold them :)
ReplyDeleteOh Steph, that was great, gave me goosebumps! Mac and I were talking just last night about how we didn't really know what love was until we became parents....
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